Sunday 20 May 2007

The Mirror

(fer that sum1 whu told me to look myself in the mirror...this is fer u...buat sape yg terasa...bagus ah...kalau tk phm2 jgk...g telan bomb sudah..haha...)

Temptation-
Why won't you leave me alone?
Lurking Every Corner, everywhere I go

Self Control-
Don't turn your back on me now
When I need you the most

Constant pressure tests my will
My will or my won't
My Self Control escapes from me still...

Hypocrite-
How could you be so cruel
and expect my faith in return?

Resistance-
Is not as hard as it seems
When you close the door

I spent so long trusting in you
I trust you forgot
Just when I thought I believed in you...

"What're you doing? What're you doing?"

It's time for me to deal
Becoming all too realliving in fear-
Why did you lie and pretend?
This has come to an end
I'll never trust you again
It's time you made your amends
Look in the mirror my friend

"That I haven't behaved as I should"
"Everything you need is around you.
The only danger is inside you."

"I thought you could control life, but it's not like that. There are
things you can't control."

Let's stare the problem right in the eye
It's plagued me from coast to coast
Racing the clock to please everyone
All but the one who matters the most

Reflections of reality
are slowly coming into view
How in the hell could you possibly forgive me?
After all the hell I put you through

It's time for me to deal
Becoming all too real
living in fear-
Why'd I betray my friend?
Lying until the end
Living life so pretend
It's time to make my amends
I'll never hurt you again

Lie

(fer all diggers up there..this song is dedicated to all those unfaithful lovers of my dearest clownz n sistaez...by Dream Theater)

Daybreak
at the bottom of lake
it's a hundred degrees I can't breathe
And I won't get out
'til I figure it out
Though I'm weak like I can't believe
So you tell me 'trust me' l can trust you
Just let me show you
But I gotta work it out in a shadow of doubt
'cause I don't know if I know you

Doing fine but don't waste my time
Tell me what it is you want to say
You sin, you win, just let me in - hurry
I've been out in the rain all day
So you tell me 'trust me' I can trust you
as far as I can throw you
And I'm trying to get out of a shadow of doubt
'cause I don't know if I know you

Don't tell me you wanted me
Don't tell me you thought of me
I won't, I swear I won't
(Did)
I'll try, I swear I'll try
(Lie)

Mother Mary quite contrary
Kiss the boys and make them wary
Things are getting just a little bit scary
It's a wonder I can still breathe

Never been much of a doubting Thomas
but nothing breaks like a broken promise
You tell me 'bout your two more coming
but once is just enough for me

I had gotten used to being a soul destroyed
She comes in apparently to fill the void
All dogs need a leash and
at least I'll forget it
And she would never hurt me though
she's never said it
But I'm not gonna ask her today
I don't wanna scare her away
Your town, I'm all alone
and I just can't stare at the phone
I wanna talk about lifelong mistakes
and you can tell your stepfather I said so

I'm Feeling So Great...haha

hei peeps..i'm back again..sori fer d couple of weeks' hiatus...haha..hospitalized lar diggers...sori2...small matter...then this webby cant be updated...due to sum technical stuffs..haha...k2...gez wat...i'm feeling way way better...as tho i hav nutg to think about at all...haha...reali2...i think i'm losing myself...i duno y i feel so upbeat over nutg...i dun evn think straight...kinda feel tt sumtg's amiss...haha...but i'v nvr bn better...btw...had a wonderful dinner wit my parents on mother's day...then went out fer a movie with nazhimah..haha...as crazy as ever...today i met a new fren whose name is lina..ok lar...she resembles the old lina so much..hmm...i do hav doubts bout tt...but its bn a pleasant start to our frenship...its bn quite sum tym since i had a new fren...fezah...werkg isit? haha...yah...faizal is getting better...ur hubby will call u up aite...trust ur crazy bro here...tts all fer now i gez...gota start a new day in ma life tmr...optimistically...As'kum

Thursday 17 May 2007

It's Been A While

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As f*cked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and f*cked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that sh*t seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As f*cked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As f*cked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry

Sunday 6 May 2007

Ya Rabbi..

God...she asked me to mirror myself...blamed me fer evrytg...has time fer other guys..til 3+am yet no time fer me...told my sis she treats me as her bf...lies..lies..lies..my fault? r u so sure? no expletives can describe a woman like u...u sure u wana change? haha..i doubt so..i reali do doubt so...pray fer u? not evn in ur wildest dreams...forgive u? skrg got guy with wealth looks and evrytg..ur dream guy...gd fer u...Karma doesnt forget...

Thursday 3 May 2007

I Am The Highway

(a song from Audioslave's 1st album that reali caught my attention the 1st time i listened to it...its about how ppl make use of others when they are in need and then dun evn care about them anymore after they achieved their resolutions)


Pearls and swine bereft of me
Long and weary my road has been
I was lost in the cities
Alone in the hills
No sorrow or pity for leaving I feel

(chorus)
I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky

Friends and liars don't wait for me
I'll get on all by myself
I put millions of miles
Under my heels
And still too close to you
I feel

(chorus)
I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the lightning
I am not your autumn moon
I am the night

Crushed Crushed Crushed

as the title suggests, tt sums it all...the start of May..and not the best of starts...Lyn is oredi married last yr...2mths aftr she left me...and this august she's gona hav a junior...Yatee is getting engaged this mth...lastly...i finally decided its all over btwn Ana and me..i cant take anymore of her lies and empty promises..its been a torrid period of time fer me...that's how bad thgs hav bn...she told Fezah she treated me as a BF...bloody liar...i'm not a highway aite