Was she?

Hei diggers...
met her in the morning...she cried...only told me her mum wanted me to be deleted from her blog...but y sei...when the stories bout her & wan....khai...nizam...farhan...and many others are still on her blog...was she telling the truth....or was she lying? sum1 used to tell me...ladies use tears and parents as their shield for their lies...if she reali did lie to me...doesnt she noe how much it hurts? i tot she oredi knew d meaning of hurt when she was hurt by others in d past...so y do it to me now...y do women use a lie to cover another lie...y so...she wans her dream guy whom she cant b with...so why still stay with me...what am i? a part time lover? highway? why must she insist on calling us by the names which we oredi agreed b4 not to use...seriously...i'm getting very2 sick....whenever i have too much prbs..i get sick...oredi peeps at werk aint got no liking fer me...Lord...i reali need an istikharah...so much fer all the promises...so much fer the phrase 'no secretes between us'...sum1 told me b4...if we luv tt particular sum1 deeply...we will noe by God's Grace whether that person is lying or telling the truth...should i 4giv all the liars that i'v been with b4? shld i then forgive them wholeheartedly?

i noe i shld...Dear Lord...pls shed sum Light on them...i pray that 1 day they'll end up as wonderful ladies and have wonderful families...dun let wat has happened to me ever happen to them...